Disappointment

It's looking like I won't be able to get surgery. There are a lot of complications with the insurance process. I don't really want to get into it right now. I'm pretty disappointed. I just don't know what to do. I can't live my life this way. I am so tired of looking and feeling twenty years older than my age. My health is just going to get worse. I feel like my life is in a holding pattern. I'm just sitting here, waiting for it to get better, because I don't know what else to do. Don't worry, I'm not as depressed as this sounds. I'm just really down and frustrated. I guess I need to pray.